My guest writer today is Barb Kent who is a budding writer that is very close to bursting into bloom. It won’t be long until she’ll be writing on her own blog or have a book out there for all of us to read. Enjoy her Valentine’s Day prose.
A VALENTINE LOVE LETTER (and apology) TO: ME – FROM: ME
by Barb Kent
You and I have been together for as long as I can remember. I have not given you the love you deserve and I am sincerely sorry. Life hasn’t always been kind to you and I have not been there for you. I have pointed out every flaw I can find, and tormented you with every failure.
I have repeated relentlessly every unkind thing ever spoken to you and not let you forget the wrongs you’ve done. I’ve watched you cry and made you stop, when I should’ve held you. When you have faced difficult times, I didn’t have your back. I didn’t stand up for you when you were betrayed and I didn’t celebrate those small victories. Instead I kept insisting that you needed to fix your faults because you weren’t worthy.
I made you carry so much baggage that was never yours to bear. I shamed you when everyone walked out on you and told you, if you were better, they would’ve stayed. I did not allow you to trust yourself. For all of this, I ask your forgiveness. I pledge to you my love and respect. I am the one who should never let you down. When you feel there is no hope, it is my voice who should be whispering that there is ALWAYS hope because you are alive!
It is I who should be the voice of your truth, no matter how ridiculous anyone believes it to be. It is I who should believe in you and honor you and backed you up no matter what! Because, in all honesty, I am in awe of you. Of that spark of greatness that you never allow to go out. Of your amazing heart, your courage, and belief in a beautiful world. Of your efforts in fighting my negative voice, you deserve my love and admiration.
It is so much easier when we are on the same team and no one else can give this to you but me. I apologize for letting you down, I won’t ever turn my back on you again. I love you! Love, Me.
Happy Valentine’s Day My Lovelies! Isn’t it time you wrote a love letter to yourself?
Barb Kent was born and grew up in Cincinnati, Ohio, moving to Colorado in 1982. She is the mother of two adult sons, one of whom she lost in a mountain accident in 2010. A former personal trainer, she is an avid reader, talented writer and loves nothing more than the mountains where she lives. She spends as much time as possible outdoors hiking, snow-shoeing, skiing, or running and gardening in the warmer months. Her closest buddy is her beloved rescue dog, Bella,who is always at her side. She is married and lives with her husband, dog Bella, and rescue cat, Dollie. In her spare time, she loves nothing more than chocolate and a good book.